Life Lesson: Try Not to Lose What is Hard to Find

I hate when I lose things. Especially when it is something that is hard to find once it is lost. Things, I can honestly say I don’t lose too often. My brain is pretty good at keeping up with things, but what it struggles with are my emotions, feelings, and thoughts. 
I seem to lose my temper, my mind, my train of thought, my way, my patience, and my confidence without blinking! And of course those are the things that seem like only Jesus Himself can return to me. I can’t ever seem to find them on my own!


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I know each of these”losses” are all a matter of changing my habits and my perception. I’m working on that. It’s just the one that seems out of reach is my confidence. I can’t even backtrack my steps to figure out exactly where I lost it! I know the loss of of my confidence was a long gradual process, and it will be a long gradual process to get it back. 
This journey to rebuild myself, and locate all of those feelings, thoughts, and emotions that remain at large, is definitely a difficult one. It seems as if once progress is made in one department a regression is unfolding in another. I consider giving up on a daily bases, but for now I am still on this wild goose chase of a journey to rebuild myself! 


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Life lesson: Try not to lose what is hard to find. 

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Changing Your Personal Interpretation: Keys to Better Understanding

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I have to admit. I love the one word Daily Prompts.  Why?  Because I enjoy pulling words apart and learning more about its meaning. I also feel the power and impact one word is capable of possessing. Each day writers create beautiful peices surrounding one word. Bloggers have been driven by one word. One word that gives birth to poems that reach our souls. One word is capable of creating a moving story or entertaining tale. One word can make a change in your life.

Today’s word is understanding. Dictionary.com uses “personal interpretation” as part of its definition of the word. Personal interpretation is as simple as it reads. A person’s interpretation of fill in the blank. The way you see it.  How you understand it to be. 

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People have been dealing with other people since people have been people. Somehow this has not changed the fact that we still cannot get along.  The reason being…understanding.  Remember that dictionary.com definition I mentioned earlier? Yeah, personal  interpretation. Keyword being personal. Each of us views the world through our own eyes. We make decisions based on our own understanding.

Changing Your Personal Interpretation

Oftentimes I find myself looking at someone and thinking,  I simply do not understand.  This is usually followed by a series of, Why would you do that?  What were you thinking? type questions. I am sure if I were to ask some people those questions I might begin to get a better understanding of the situation. Now that does not mean I will agree.  It simply means I get why. 1+1 is now equalling two.  I am able to connect the dots.  I can see the whole picture now.

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Gaining a better understanding of people and their behaviors can help us to work together. I am not saying it is the solution to problems surrounding hate and other social issues, but it is a start.  If your understanding of a situation is tainted in any way, then you will not be able to see the whole picture. Learning about different cultures, medical conditions, and personalities can change your understanding about people. Remember it is your personal interpretation that determines how you view people. The more knowledge you have about people the better your interpretation will be. 

Gain a better understanding about people today. It just might help you with your annoying coworker, your evil boss, your lazy spouse, your troubled teen, your foreign neighbor, the girl or guy you have a crush on, your divorced or widowed parent who is dating, the unprofessional cashier at Walmart. I can go on, but I think you get the point. A better understanding of people leads to a better society.

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The Fog

It is unclear what lies ahead. I am uncertain with each step forward. I cannot see what is right before me,  and I can hardly make out what I have left behind.  One foot in front of the other. Taking my time as I move forward into the unknown. Nothing I recognize yet, but everything seems familiar.

There is a break in The Fog, but only for a split second. Immediately, I am blinded just as quickly as the unknown was visible. What did I see?  Why did I not see more? Unprepared for the abrupt change before my eyes, my brain was unable to interpret what my eyes had viewed in the rapid change that occurred right in front of me.

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The Fog is now denser than ever. I can no longer find my way.  Lost in this white darkness I feel trapped. I need more support. I reach out and feel around in this mysterious place as I walk forward. One foot in front of the other. One foot in front of the other. Slowy, I am able to see past my hands.  A gradual steady lifting of The Fog gives me a sense of hope.

The Fog has lifted and darkness is upon me.  Only two streets lined with street lights greet me.  I have reached a fork in the road. What do I do now? I can see clearly and I still do not know what to do. I guess I will use the senses and resources I have available. Be observant. And as always, one step at a time. One foot in front of the other. Just as I did…in The Fog.

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Life Outside the Box

It truly amazes me how people differ so greatly. You have people (who why I don’t understand for the life of me) who are energized by being surrounded by people, extroverts.  Then, you have people who are drained from too much social interacting (that would be me), introverts.  Two sets of people who roam the same planet and manage to thrive together. How do we do it? 

I don’t know how we do it,  but simply trying to grasp the concept of the group one doesn’t fit in, is a challenge in itself. I don’t know why anyone would want to be surrounded by strangers at a party. People are just randomly striking up conversations with people who they just met in that moment. Didn’t our parents teach us not to talk to strangers?!?!
That whole strangers at a party scenario is something that puts an intense amount of anxiety in me.

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Extroverts love being around others. They appreciate social interactions. It is so easy for them to strike up a conversation with a stranger and turn that stranger into a BFF.  They can not fathom the idea of not going to a party. Or,  not speaking to people they don’t know. On the other hand introverts like myself, would prefer to hang out with close friends. Honestly, I would prefer the company of an animal. They are so much easier to be around!

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Introvert or extrovert, in the end it’s ok to be either. We might not understand each other, but oddly enough we roam the same planet and manage to thrive together.

K. A. Smith

To Understand the Internal

If I had one wish, what would it be? I would probably wish for more wishes. There is never enough time. There is never enough money. There is always too much weight. There is always too much stress. Is there a balance in this life? I am certainly trying to find it.  Never being good enough. Never succeeding. What is the goal? What is the purpose? Better days have to come. Changes have to be made. Happiness is not the goal. Contentment is where it is.  Accepting would also suffice.

Neat and beautiful little packages that are wrapped with bows are surrounding this unattractive package. This unattractive package that is out of shape and unappealing to the eyes just wants to be an attractive beautiful little package. No one gets it.  No one understands. No one sees a difference in the group of packages. But for that package everything is different, and everything is wrong.

K. A. Smith

Invisibly Ill

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As you walk into the Emergency Room, you notice a man coughing. He is coughing so hard you just know he will hack up his lungs any minute now.

To your left are some kids. One has a bag of ice wrapped in a towel over her right eye. The older boy, who appers to be her older brother has a golf ball sized knot over his left eye. 

Amongst the sea of ER waiting room people, there is no denying why they are present. But you walk in and check yourself in.  You have a seat and immediately you feel out of place.

There are dozens of people who have been waiting for hours before you even set foot into the building. However, you are the next name called into the triage room. The waiting area erupts with anger and profanity.

Why is SHE going before ME?! 
WTF?!, I’ve been here for HOURS!!
I  simply don’t understand.

The chatter continues as you close the triage room door and sit in the cold hard blue chair against the wall. You confirm your name and date of birth. The nurse asks for the reason of your visit to the Emergency Room, and you respond…

“I just want the pain to end.  I am tired of being depressed. I have a full bottle of pain pills in my purse and I debated with myself for the past two hours if I should take them all or go to the ER.  Well,  here I am.”

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There are plenty of people who are depressed all across the world. The pain they feel may never be known to others, but it is real. Some depressed people look and act as if nothing is wrong when mixing and mingling amongst society, but behind closed doors the tears stream down their faces. Their homes may be neglected. They may over eat or not eat at all.  There may be sleepless nights or binge sleeping every weekend.

It’s not socially acceptable to fall apart in front of your peers, co workers, or strangers. You are supposed to “keep it together” and “not let your personal life blend in with your work/school life.” This has brought a great deal of people to a place of having to cope alone.

Many people with a depressive illness never seek treatment. But the majority, even those with the most severe depression, can get better with treatment. Medications, psychotherapies, and other methods can effectively treat people with depression.

Source: National Institute of Mental Health

No one should have to remain “invisibly ill.” Take the necessary measures to help someone who you know is depressed.  If anyone ever asks you if you have a second, they just want to talk…DROP EVERYTHING AND LISTEN!! If that’s not possible get a general idea of what’s going on and maybe you could schedule some time to listen later.

Most of the time people just need someone to listen to their story. That is the best way to help, and get the ball rolling to recovery. If you do not feel you can help, let them know you are there for them and you will help them get through the depression.  You can help them search for counselors, therapists, psychiatrists, and support groups. If they need you for support and to accompany them to appointments, do so. That would help greatly.

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It might be  a long road…but having someone concerned about your mental health can make the journey better.

Here are some tips from the National Institute of Mental (NIMH) and a link to the NIMH website…

To help your friend or relative

•Offer emotional support, understanding, patience, and encouragement.

•Talk to him or her, and listen carefully.

•Never dismiss feelings, but point out realities and offer hope.

•Never ignore comments about suicide, and report them to your loved one’s therapist or doctor.

•Invite your loved one out for walks, outings and other activities. Keep trying if he or she declines, but don’t push him or her to take on too much too soon.

•Provide assistance in getting to the doctor’s appointments.

•Remind your loved one that with time and treatment, the depression will lift.

National Institute of Mental Health Website

**Disclaimer: I am not doctor or any other healthcare professional. I am simply a blogger who is greatly concerned for the mental health of others. If you or someone you know is depressed follow the links to the National Institute of Mental Health for more information on depression.**

K. A. Smith

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Changing Others By Changing Yourself: Creating a Better Life

ImageThe past week or so has been pretty rough for me.  There were ups, and there were downs.  Unexpected twists and turns became the norm for me, but days passed, and life got better.  In fact it became better than it had been in years!  Some times in life we focus on the things others do to hurt us, but there is not much we can do to change other people.

 

During this past week, I realized that a change in self may be all that is needed to bring you to a better place.  Why are people mistreating you?  Why is everything going wrong?  Why do I keep messing up? Instead of shutting people out of your life, or trying to change them, try looking at yourself.  Take some time to sit in silence, and just think.  What is it that you don’t like about yourself?  What is that negative thing about you others always seem to point out? There is a common thread there somewhere, and you need to locate it and work on changing it. 

There is a good chance that your negative ways are poisoning your relationships, and indirectly hindering the successes you desire.  Admit one of your negative personality traits today.  Don’t just admit it to yourself, admit it to someone you may have hurt or offended with that behavior.  Next, you may have to do some research, meditating, or praying to open your mind to changing.  Knowing the benefits to modifying your behavior can also help you on your journey of a better you.  Finally, be consistent. You might feel like giving up initially, but in the long run it is well worth it.  

Is there something about you that is ruining your relationships?  Is there something that you never really liked about yourself, and finally want to change? Do you have any advice for someone who is trying to change bad habits or better themselves in life? Please share in the comments, I would love to discuss this topic with you!

 

Colorful Personalities| What Does Your Favorite Color Say About You?

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I am sitting here as my two year old son eats a pack of fruit snack gummy candies. The package is orange, and the candies inside are either red, purple, green,  blue,  yellow, or orange. He is instantly excited about the orange package. He tells me, “Orange Mommy”, while chewing on one of the candies. He always recognizes orange, and appears more interested in that particular color.

Now, I am wondering if orange is his favorite color. This lead me to wonder about what your favorite color says about your personality. I recall reading about this type of personality quiz a while back and decided to Google to see what the color orange would reveal.

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Here is the site I went to. My curiosity about what my own favorite color would reveal caused me to go straight to purple. After reading the description, and asking my husband for a second opinion, I concluded my favorite color does not describe me at all! 

Purple: Purples are highly individual, fastidious, witty and sensitive, with a strong desire to be unique and different. Temperamental, expansive and artistic, a Purple person may become aloof and sarcastic when misunderstood. If you chose Purple, you tend to be unconventional, tolerant and dignified, likely to achieve positions of authority.

On to orange…

Orange: This color of luxury and pleasure appeals to the flamboyant and fun-loving person who likes a lively social round. Orange people may be inclined to dramatize a bit, and people notice them, but they are generally good-natured and popular. They can be a little fickle and vacillating, but on the whole they try hard to be agreeable. Orange is the color of youth, strength, fearlessness, curiosity and restlessness.

This describes my two year old perfectly! He is so filled with life and adventure. There is never, and I mean never a dull moment with him.

Take a look at the website and see if your favorite color matches your personality!
Feel free to comment with your results.

By the way…I am really a maroon!

K. A. Smith

Daily Prompt| Conflict Resolution

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How do I handle conflict? You’re wrong and I’m right! It’s my way or the highway!  I’m joking! Or am I? More

In Your Dreams

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There is something so amazing about dreams. Some people can recall every detail of a dream. While others, like myself, only remember bits and pieces. These bits and pieces usually end up fading away the further away from the dream I get.

I particularly like dreams because they don’t actually exist. Well at least mine don’t. I am sure there is at least one person who will tell me otherwise, and I don’t disagree. I am just speaking from my own personal accounts.  My dreams take place during sleep, and that world no longer exists when I am awaken. Usually, I don’t see myself in dreams. I tend to see through my eyes, as I do outside of a dream. I don’t recognize the people or the places. My dreams tend to blend themselves together somehow. For example, I could be in a subway, and then I take a couple of steps and I am in a diner!  It’s like I walked through a wall, but I didn’t.

I really enjoy dreams because they exist and then it’s as if they never happened. My dreams rarely repeat, and 95%  of them don’t make it past one minute of me being awake. I don’t mind it. It just makes dreams more magical and mysterious. I think I will actually try to document as much of my dreams from now on. They just might make for some good blogging!

K. A. Smith

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